https://gogetfunding.com/computer-for-working-at-home-and-to-help-people-with-mental-health-problems/Please help me buy a computer and equipment to help people with Mental Illness get the help and resources they need.
This is one of the hardest things i’ve ever done, really it is and I have done done a lot of things. I have never been great at asking for help but I am slowly learning to. I have no idea how this is going to go or how to approach this request so i’ve opted for sharing my heart, but could I please have a moment of your time. My name is Trudi, and I am 32 years old. I am currently living with my parents due to having mental health problems, severe anxiety, agoraphobia, severe depression; and I have had a physical nervous breakdown seven years ago. Eight years ago I was made redundant due to structural changes at my old job, which was actually a good thing, because the manager was trying to get me out of the store and was bullying me, using my mental health problems as an excuse. She made me sound like I was losing my mind, at the time I was having a very bad bout of depression. A year later, I went for a job as a carer, I had previously worked an obtained my NVQ 2 in care. Unfortunately as I was going for training, before starting as a carer, I suffered a nervous breakdown. At the time I didn’t know what it was, I had just woke up one morning unable to walk, and in constant pain all over. I went three years of hospital appointments, trying to work out what it was, going through tests from the job centre and Work Capability Assessments, before the doctors of the Neurological hospital next to Great Ormond Street Hospital told me it was in my head from being sexually abused by my step brother and sexually assaulted in 2007 by my sister’s then boyfriend. It was the way they said it, that made me fight harder, there was no compassion or emotion in their voice, just “It’s in your head!” I went to many other doctors, even to Bart’s hospital, where I saw a ME Specialist psychiatrist who wrote that I made inappropriate jokes, when all I said was something about myself, but therapists can be that way sometimes. I should go back and explain a few things first, in 1999 I was 16, I told a teacher about the sexual abuse I had suffered from age 11 to that time. I had therapy until 19, but at that time they did not have the services they have now, so I was told I was okay. So we never got to talk about the real gritty stuff that happened, or how my depression rules my daily life. 3 years ago, I got the therapy for the abuse and sexual assault, though it took two years to get any help. My therapist who was NHS, only had a little time to get me better, because there is such a waiting list for the service. Thought it helped address some things, and I can walk and move normally, I still feel pretty bad, and as though I am to blame sometimes. 2 Years ago I went to a Work Capability Assessment, and even though I said I was suicidal, they passed me as being able to work. I was then transferred to Maximus, where it was okay in the beginning, but then they started to ramp up the pressure to work. I have always had anxiety, depression, and agoraphobia, and it has always been a problem. I have the tendency to blackout when I go out on my own, or get overwhelmed, or both. They also made me go to these weekly workshops, where they kept on about barriers, but never actually addressed them, just kept plugging that we need to go to work, work will set you free. So now, having my last appointment ever, and worrying about the future of what is going to happen next. I don’t want to come across as a victim, I’m a survivor of this. I just worry that this will be misconstrued as victim playing. I just wanted to explain my experiences with mental health and mental health trusts during my journey of trying to be as normal as I can possibly be, and be an independ person while also helping people who are being let down by the system too. The government have never really addressed people with long term mental health problems, I want to help. I have always had a passion for psychology, but thought that with my mental health problems it would never be possible to do, as well as not being very good at school. But I have always liked helping people, and making people’s lives a little better. Due to my own experience with mental health, knowing how exhausting it can be hunting for information about services, and charities, especially for those who have mental health and their family members. As it can make you feel as though it is a hard time getting the support you need, where you feel you are not ill enough to get the assistance. I made this site for the core reason that I think finding out about mental illnesses, your rights, and contacts can be a very long struggle. All the sites and charities don’t list many places that isn’t theirs, and most of them are not directly near where you live. I would like to raise some money for a new computer, at the moment I have a very old laptop I am working from, which is 7 years old and very slow and is incapable of doing more than one or two tasks. This is the computer I am currently working from, a Dell Inspirion